The World’s Okayest Mom

This is the continuing saga of my menstrual cup journey. It finally arrived in the mail! I decided to go with the unbranded one from www.Rebelkate.com and was very pleasantly surprised when I went to order and discovered that they sell them in packages of two - a large size and a small size so I didn't have to guess and spend the money on the wrong size! I also found out that they have a deal that when I bought one set I could get a second set for $10 extra so I got 4 cups altogether for about $30 which is about what ONE cup would cost elsewhere. Score!! It took about two weeks to arrive, which is ok considering it's not Amazon Prime promising 1-2 day shipping. Their website does say that they have United States and also international suppliers so it should take around 2 weeks including a few days to process the order. I also want to note that they offer a few cool products geared at empowering women such as reusable fabric pads, cute bags, jewelry, and even shoes and pillows...

I have an unpopular opinion: I think a lot of the “insta mommies” and “Pinterest mommies” are using postpartum depression as a tool to seem relatable and I think it’s pretty fucked up. It seems like writing or vlogging about your “experience” has become a badge of honor not only used to boost popularity and relatability but also to shill multi-level marketing products (which was my experience).  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not claiming to know what any one person has been through or felt at one point or another but when someone tries to relate to me as a stressed out mom by posting pictures of their immaculate house, perfectly styled children, and letter boards calling themselves “hot mess mamas” I find it to be more than disingenuous. I actually find it to be fake and insulting. When someone tries to tell me their story of redemption from the pits of despair by finding Beach Body or essential oils and I could find peace too if I buy their products for the low low price of $300 I g...

Earlier today I was circling hardcore. The kind of anxiety where you just feel kind of not good, can’t quite breathe right, you’re worried but not sure what about, start getting tunnel vision and feeling like you just have to lay down right now and go to sleep or you might die.... I am applauding myself because I recognized what was happening and in my foggy mind I sat down and thought “what can i do? I have a toddler sitting in his high chair eating his lunch so I can’t fall apart right now. I have a lot to do today and I can’t put it all on hold for an anxiety attack. I have to fix this.” I already took my Zoloft so had to wait for that to work. I already texted a friend and said I’m having an anxiety attack but have to wait for a response. So I sat down and drank a bottle of water and thought about deep breathing... that’s supposed to help! Then I remembered that doing the “legs up the wall” pose (or Viparita Karani) is supposed to help also so I laid on the floor while the bab...