Legs Up the Wall


Earlier today I was circling hardcore. The kind of anxiety where you just feel kind of not good, can’t quite breathe right, you’re worried but not sure what about, start getting tunnel vision and feeling like you just have to lay down right now and go to sleep or you might die....

I am applauding myself because I recognized what was happening and in my foggy mind I sat down and thought “what can i do? I have a toddler sitting in his high chair eating his lunch so I can’t fall apart right now. I have a lot to do today and I can’t put it all on hold for an anxiety attack. I have to fix this.”

I already took my Zoloft so had to wait for that to work. I already texted a friend and said I’m having an anxiety attack but have to wait for a response. So I sat down and drank a bottle of water and thought about deep breathing... that’s supposed to help! Then I remembered that doing the “legs up the wall” pose (or Viparita Karani) is supposed to help also so I laid on the floor while the baby ate his lunch with my legs up on the wall, eyes closed, deep breathing for a few minutes.

Guess what?? I feel soooo much better!!! Like seriously 99% better! I have worries of course that aren’t going to go away but I can handle the rest of my day.

I’m proud of myself for making the kind of progress that I could think through an anxiety attack and work myself out of it without falling apart. 2 years ago I would have been in a ball on the floor crying, unable to take care of the baby, unable to manage the rest of my day.

#workdsokayestmom #anxietysucks #legsupthewall #viparitakarani #yogaandbreathingforthewin #askher #sendhelp


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